Anxiety is a sneaky little bastard. Panic attacks come out of no where, and BAM, all of the sudden your heart is racing, your whole body is shaking, you can't catch your breath, and you feel like you're going to die for absolutely no reason. And that's the hardest part - you don't know why you're feeling this way.
And when you try to explain it to anyone, they just tell you to calm down and it's all in your head and you're fine. Note: SAYING THIS DOES NOT HELP. It actually makes it worse. So don't say these things to someone who is having a panic attack. They have NO CONTROL over what they are going through. If you're there, and they want you to stay, just be there. You don't have to say anything or try to fix anything, because it can't be fixed like that.
I wish there was a logical explanation to why this happens to me. I wish I could make it stop, for good. Be gone. Forever.
But for now ...