Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Day 273

"Who makes you happier than anyone else?"

         Wow, tough question there, guys. I mean, come on...

This little man, right here. This picture is over a year old, but it's one of my all time favorites. Love him more than anything, ever. 

Monday, September 29, 2014

Day 272

"What does your dream house look like?"

        Well ... I have a few ideas. 



        Three - this has been my dream house ever since I lived in Canandaigua back in 2003-2004.

        Four - the house from Practical Magic.

        Five - Lorelai's house... with an extra bedroom or two.

Sunday, September 28, 2014

Day 271

Happy 30th Birthday to ME!

Have a great day everyone! I know I will!

Saturday, September 27, 2014

Day 270

"When you've had a terrible day, how do you deal with it?"

        I get really, really quiet, sometimes I cry silently, or as silently as possible because I hate attention. I hate when people ask me what's wrong when I don't want to talk about it. And then I stew on it for a few days until I finally decide to talk to someone about , or write about it in a blog post. It's a very unhealthy habit, I know, but I have a hard time talking. It's always been easier for me to write, which is why I prefer to texting over talking on the phone.

Friday, September 26, 2014

Day 269

Happy Birthday!

        To my beautiful niece, Madison! May your 6th birthday be fun and have lots of cake! Auntie Jess and Dylan love you!

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Day 268

"How are you wearing your hair?"

        Wow, we're vain lately. 
        Um, I'll either dry and straighten it, or let it air dry and end up putting it in a pony tail, or a braid I pull off to the side. My hair is really long now, so I rarely blow dry it.  

{It takes 30 minutes just to freaking blow dry my hair!}

        I know if I cut it off, I will want it back, so that's not an option. I've always wanted Holly Marie Combs hair, when she was Piper on Charmed. It was so long and shiny. I don't think my hair could grow that long, but we'll see. 

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Day 267

"List how you did your make up today."

        I haven't done it yet. Normally, I just use mascara, eyeliner, and cocoa butter lip balm. Sometimes I do eyeshadow if I feel like it. I use either purples or neutral colors for my eyes, which would be browns. I don't use cover up, unless I have a giant zit, which is rare. I'll probably just use mascara and eyeliner today.

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Day 266

"List your favorite stores."

  • Target
  • Old Navy
  • 13 Moons 
  • Amazon (duh)
  • Barnes & Noble 
  • Bath & Body Works
  • Wegmans
  • Lisa's Liquor Barn (gotta have wine)
  • The Dollar Store

Monday, September 22, 2014

Day 265

"List some of your family and how they help you."

  • Dylan - his existence, his smile, his laugh, his jokes... everything about him. He keeps my heart beating.  
  • Matt - he cleans the cat box and takes out the trash. And he loves me, like, A LOT. 
  • Noah - he's sweet and funny.
  • Tazzy Cat - he's such a spaz, but very cuddly when he wants attention. And he gives my hand a bath, more specifically my fingers. 
  • Meatball - she's stupid and hilarious, especially when she chases Taz all over the house. She makes me laugh when she runs through the house, barking like a dog.

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Day 264

"List five bad things about your life."

       I don't like to dwell on the bad things in my life, but of course everyone has some. No one is perfect, but life can still be good. Here is my list, and in all honesty, my life really isn't that bad. 
  1. Anxiety 
  2. Chronic pain (in my feet)
  3. How expensive the good contact lenses are... 
  4. Not being able to do things I want to do because of anxiety 
  5. Fucking anxiety... 

Saturday, September 20, 2014

Day 263

Why are you always so quiet?  

        I feel like people think I'm rude or a bitch because I’m shy and quiet. But it’s not because I have nothing to say; it’s because I have too much to say, and I'm afraid I will come off as unintelligent because my thoughts are always so jumbled and scrambled, and my mind goes off on tangents. I also fear what I have to say might bore other people, or they will think I'm insane {which wouldn't be that far off.}
        So, instead, I say nothing.

Friday, September 19, 2014

Day 262

"List what you did/plan to do today."

  1. Drop Dylan off at the bus stop
  2. Pay Bills
  3. Clean
  4. Take my aunt shopping
  5. Write 
  6. ... Fuck around online; look at amazon, play on facebook, research for writing, etc.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Day 261

"List your (current) five favorite songs."

  1. Vagabond by Misterwives
  2. Try by Colbie Caillat 
  3. Chandelier by Sia 
  4. 3 Things  by Jason Mraz
  5. Over by Tove Lo

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Day 260

"List five good things about your life."

  1. I am free and optimistic about the future.
  2. I have A CAR!
  3. I have a roof over my head, with heat and electricity and interwebs!
  4. My loving family, cats included. 
  5. My new kitchen floor that I did (almost) all by myself! It's purrty! ;-)

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Day 259

"List five things you want to say to five different people right now."

  1. "I love you."
  2. "I miss you."
  3. "Things would start to get a lot better for you if you would only quit drinking."
  4. "You are not a good mother; you are a selfish, shallow, materialistic narcissist - and your child(ren) would be so much better off without you."
  5. "You know I love you, but it's never going to get better until you stop drinking the poison."
        I'm not going to say who these are meant for. Maybe friends, maybe family, maybe some people I used to know, and a few of those can actually be for more than one person. Number one is meant for (almost) everyone. But, none of them will ever read this, so it doesn't really matter. Some people might assume it's about them. Well, you know what they say when you assume.

Monday, September 15, 2014

Day 258

"List your top five favorite drinks."

  1. Coffee (w/ fat free half and half and Stevia)
  2. Iced Tea
  3. Water
  4. Ginger ale
  5. Wine

Sunday, September 14, 2014

Day 257

"List your top five favorite foods."

  1. Spicy Guacamole w/tortilla chips and/or carrots
  2. Salad w/balsamic vinaigrette  
  3. Steak & salt potatoes
  4. Eggs, over easy, & toast
  5. Any Cream/Milk product (butter, cheese, coffee cream, ice cream, whipped cream, creme bruleetiramisu, etc) 

Saturday, September 13, 2014

Day 256

"List the 10 most significant events of your life."

  1. My parents divorce
  2. Graduating High School 
  3. Graduating College
  4. Having my son
  5. Getting Published
  6. Moving 150 miles away from home
  7. Moving back
  8. Meeting my fiance
  9. Losing a once best friend
  10. Finding a real one

Friday, September 12, 2014

Day 255

What are you into learning lately?

        Latin. It's helpful when writing spells... for my stories, of course... A few examples I've learned so far are:

        ite ad tenebras de quo egressus es - Go back to the darkness from whence thou camest

        suffocat tuus in lingua - choke on your tongue

        Tenebrae unum - dark one

        laxantur - relapse

        da eo mea vita - give him my life

        Indica mihi ubi ille est - Tell me where he is

        Protego vitam
        Per et virtutes, quae exsisto 
        Custodire eum salvum 
        Omnis enim aeternitas 

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Day 254

Favorite Mixed Drink(s)

        I don't really drink too much, but my all time favorite drink is a long island iced tea. I am also really into blueberry vodka and whipped vodka lately. If I happen to have any or get any (stuff lasts me FOREVER), I will mix some with frozen blueberries and gingerale. I also like to put frozen raspberries in my white cat wine. It makes everything taste better, AND I'm eating fruit ;-)

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Day 253

"A New Song You Like or Can Relate To"

I think this song could go either way, with men or women.
I also know more "pretty" women with ugly hearts. But it's hard to find them pretty when their heart and soul are black. 

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Monday, September 8, 2014

Day 251

"If you died tomorrow, would you want to tell anyone anything?"

        I'd want to tell my son to stay strong and that even though I'm not physically here, I will always be with him. I'd tell him to look up to the night sky and pick a star, and say, that's where I will be. Always shining down on you, every night, guarding you while you sleep, giving you good dreams, and loving you always. I'd tell him that he is loved so much, and by so many, and will always be taken care of. I'd tell him that I am glad it's me and not him, because I couldn't bear to live in a world where he did not exist. 
       And then I'd say, I love you more than anything, ever. 

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Day 250

"What is your opinion on drinking/drugs?"

        Well, I believe everything in moderation, unless it's something seriously addictive like heroin. Don't do heroin, ever. If it something you can have one time and not become instantly addicted to it, then it's okay. Oh, and legal. Don't do anything illegal. 
        Everyone knows how much I like a glass of wine here and there, but I'm lucky that I've never become addicted to alcohol, because it does run in my family. Even when I smoked cigarettes, I was not like most smokers. I was a stress smoker, mostly, and one pack would last me a month, unless I was sharing it, which I did a lot. 
        If you have an addictive personality, I wouldn't recommend doing anything. Because you never know if that one drink or one pill or one cigarette will break you. If you're like me and can have a glass of wine and a cigarette once a month with a friend, then you're fine. But wait until you're 21. It's really bad for your brain development if you don't... 

Saturday, September 6, 2014

Day 249

Sick Pookie

        Gotta love going back to school and having your kid come home sick after only two days.
        It was weird. He came home sick from summer camp that weekend, with the fever, then he was fine for 2+ weeks. Goes to Springwater and has a blast with his best friend, Sid. Comes home, is totally fine, then he goes back to school, and comes home with a fever and cold like symptoms, again.
        Maybe I should buy him a bubble...

Friday, September 5, 2014

Day 248

"Who do you text most?"

        Matt. My mom. My bubbies. But, mostly just Matt...

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Day 247

First Day Of School 

        My kid is so big. He's starting 4th grade today. I am so proud of him. I know he's going to be great. I will miss him so much, I hate the end of summer. I love spending time with him, and miss him when he's gone. But I know he's having a great time, making new friends and learning cool new things. And he's so excited about Science this year! I really do have the coolest kid, ever.

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

Day 246

"What’s your favorite band/musician?" 

        This changes on a regular basis, depending on my mood, what I'm doing, if I'm writing and what I want to listen to. 
        But, I guess my top five of all time are:
  1. John Mayer (Dylan's middle name is Mayer)
  2. Jason Mraz
  3. Florence + The Machine
  4. Sia
  5. Yuna

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Day 245

"What is the last thing you had to save your money for?"

        Everything lol My car, fixing the giant hole in our bedroom ceiling, a new kitchen floor, a carpet shampooer (rental), the boys Christmas present, going on a weekend trip with Matt to the Adirondacks when the leaves turn in October. We're currently saving for all of these things, except for my car. 

Monday, September 1, 2014

Day 244

"Do you have a set out path for your future yet?"

        Eh... not really. 
        I have ideas of what I want, but time is in flux and things can happen at any moment that could effect the outcome of my future. 
        I want to buy a house with Matt in the Avon/Caledonia/York area. Closer to Matt's work, where it's less populated and would probably be much easier for me to find a job I'm capable of doing. (NO customer service... like, ever.) I wanted to have another baby, but now, Matt and I are okay with not having anymore kids. Our kids are already 9 and 11, so I feel like they're too old now. If, by some miracle, I did get pregnant again, I'd be happy and keep it, but I'm not holding my breath. We tried for two years with no success. I have to stay on the birth control -- or as I call it; hormone control -- to stop the cysts from forming. Because I don't really need birth control; I can't get pregnant when I'm not on it, anyway. But, maybe, one day, it will happen. I'm leaving it up to the powers that be, the stars, the universe. Not going to worry about it or try for it again, because I'm only left disappointed and heartbroken. 
        Once our kids are off to college, I'd really like to travel. Around the country, around the world. Visit England, Ireland, Scotland, and France and Italy and Greece and Egypt and New Zealand. And travel to every single state in the USA, including Alaska and Hawaii, and send post cards home and take pictures and just... be free. That is my ultimate dream. Become a vagabond for a few years. And write all about it as I go.